All i want for christmas is you!!! My feelings for this are so strong and so true!!! Its hard when i realise you are not here, i cant help but shed a tear!!! To me its still not a tiny bit clear, why God took you from all of us down here!!! Marlon I know ur watching me 24-7 and i know ur happy and safe in heaven!!! But i sometimes sit in my room and cry, i really cant help it but i do try!!! I cannot lie about my LOVE for you, its so strong and oh so very true!!! YOU were our rock every minute, every hour, every day, every month, every year!!! p.s. i jus wanna say u were the best big bro in the world and i still cant believe ur gone!!! God broke our bond and for that i will never forgive but i will keep going and doing wat u said to... :) jus wish u were ere to watch me..... but i know ur watchin me from up der..... sleep easy my angel!!!!!! love ya for eternity!!!! love lucy lu xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxx MERRY XMAS MARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!